LOVE RAIN - FALLING THROUGH

 

I have always kept memories in a fraction of my heart and I define Love Rain as a hope for me to write, to fantasize my thought and recreate the best version of my unrequited love story. It doesn't matter whether the words collide with the movies; the sound of rain is always serene and hopeful for me like the beginning of the new dimension of love. It is undefinable to even weigh the gravity of that moment and resuscitate the exact same structure. 

But tomorrow, a very after day of that moment 5 years ago, I tried to revive Love Rain in a form of poem. It was a period of time where I couldn't fathom the depth of words. For me, rhymes and stanzas were the only structure of the poem therefore, I wrote or at least tried to write in a most dowdy form.

LOVE RAIN

Start ahead, that never die...

love rains with an umbrella...

Heart says," Do it!!", it never lie...

Heading a way, me and you...

wets the shoulder, but I seek on you...

breathing the love, that whispers onto me...

Nevertheless, I only stare at you...

Loquacity never seems gone...

though the words fled away...

Love rain pours onto my heart...

loopy heart thinks you a whole day...

Last second, you pass me your umbrella...

Heart cautions & I go a mile away...

Feeling the love rain, I smile at you...

Wondering today, I again fall in love with you...!!!

Who knows what follows the step after even you know the destination you are heading for. Unforeseen is not always strenuous as it sounds. However I have always been exhilarated by ' what comes after?' and so, I derive the imagination without any bargain. Unrequited love is not easy to love and the expectation thereafter always advance with the consequence. But it doesn't matter because you enjoy that, you live with that and it makes you alive, it creates you to better version of yourself; may be not always but always in the beginning.

Life had always been boring with same schedule and all but I had someone to spend the enthralling 1 hour of my life. I mean we had the same class of Physics 101 and we were close all thanks to that boring lecture. We always used to head back home together. It was just 15 minutes walk to our terminal and we depart back home in a different direction. On a summer day, the 'unforeseen' intervened and I wondered, " What comes after?". The unforeseen was the rain that occurred in a bright day and I had no umbrella at that chaotic moment. Well just as you are predicting, yes!! She had an umbrella and she saved me. But first, I had no words to ask her to share her umbrella because it was small and I was big. Big means pretty big!!

She said," Oye!! Hop in. We'll be late." Obviously I blushed at that moment but the creation of unforeseen was dragging me towards her. The after journey began and so the intensity of the rainfall. As I said before, the umbrella was small and I was big so, the rain soaked my shoulder but she didn't tilt her umbrella towards me and I didn't expect that either as I was constrained by the flame of her perfume. When the air breeze swing her hair in my face, I was wondering about the conditioner she used lol. When my clavicle collided with her shoulder due to less space, I took a step sideway but she ultimately came closer towards me tightening the space and I could even hear her gasp but the question is, " Did she hear my heart pounding?". The shortest 15 minutes was the lengthiest of my life at that moment and I had stared her the whole time. The sight of her from an inch apart is by far the most captivating glimpse of all time.

I was always the loquacious one and I didn't even know what I murmur sometimes but the words I spoke, the fun I made, it had always obliged her to smile and laugh. The best effort was always rewarded by her happiness and I challenged myself each day  to create the best of the best moment of her life so far. Sometimes I couldn't stop uttering words and sometimes, I was tied with no words but before awkwardness slapped in my face, I was always able to forge strong backup jokes. Within that feeling of my one sided love, I didn't want that pause to shallow our friendship.  I could have told her about my unblended love. Might be I was afraid of losing her. Might be I was a coward. It doesn't matter now though.

The prolonged 15 minutes was coming to an end. I was far seeing our terminal and the good bye was always the worst part for me. "Can't the unforeseen be embedded inside the unforeseen and sparks again with a new twist?", I was probably gone to a new fantasy which might be the effect of  Inception. The rain hadn't stopped even though we came to the end of the unforeseen or "Was that just a climate call?", I began to question myself. Uff!! the end was near. I had to head my home alone now in a fucking rain which was pre-eminent for me. Lastly, she passed me her umbrella as my bus station was farther from that terminal. I couldn't accept it because she was suffering from cold and from that terminal to her home, she had to walk for 5 minutes and without umbrella. Was I egocentric? Absolutely not..!! I ran from that terminal to my bus station with the ease heart and a happy face, I didn't care anything along the way. My soul was dancing with happiness because of the unforeseen moment I had with her. I repeated that moment again and again and again in my heart until I completely fell in love with her all over again..

In every love story, there is always a consequence like heart break or even a happy ending. The consequence of my unforeseen moment was suffering from cold and missing college for 2 days. But even in that consequence, I was not worried about my absence in college but the thought of not seeing her, not talking with her and not walking by her side was throbbing my heart and I blamed myself for my stupidity.