LONG DISTANCE UNREQUITED LOVE

 

Even though, she is very very far from you, like the first thing you remember when you wake up is the dream that contrasts tranquillized emotion of being together and then, smiling yourself as if, you read a relate-quote.

Then after having breakfast, you start liking her Instagram  photos, commenting different emojis and chatting with her sharing two different worlds. Further you ask something to her and without replying, she leaves the chat.

Now, these emotions inside, grasps your heart, bolds your mind questioning, " What happened? Why did she ignore me? Is everything alright? "

These damn feelings flow like the jealous mad possessive man.

And wait her presence for like 4/5 hours. Seriously?

When her college is over, she comes online, You refresh that damn page for more than 10times. 

Then she views your message. After, she takes less than 1 minute to reply you but you wonder, " What happens in between 1min i.e fucking 60sec?"

At last, you end a good night along a cheeky emoji and sleep with the possibility of being with her into the same world.

The chapter turns into the direction which you don't want to. She just wants to be a friend with you but you expect more than that. You want her to be the only one. You can neither deny the heart nor the innocence of her. The dilemma inside you is something you want to avoid but you can't. She now just doesn't want to the part of your life. The distance seems lengthier and lengthier each day.

These sufferings are always painful. May be that's what one sided love means. Smiling and laughing outside is nothing but an act, you don't know how to survive  the world being dragged down by the past of unrequited love.

You want someone so desperately, you want her to be the part of rest of your life but she doesn't feel the same. You know she is not wrong but the pain of not being loved by her, the future without her and more importantly, seeing her with someone else one day gonna haunt you down.

How easily she says to forget and move on but all you know  to love someone is hers and hers only. This phase of undermining love has always been the chaotic disaster in your heart, yet the dimension of your love defines that very moment as the best and you want it back.

You want to suffer loving her, talking with her, sharing your world with her : not alone in solidarity. Even it takes miles and time to get over her, still at the end, you will choose her. You are possessed by the demon of her inside; you can't let her go.....